Okay, I admit, I'm nervous about posting this one and I'm sorta dragging my feet here but I really feel in my heart that I needed to do this. Last night was a big night for me and Robbi knows what I'm talking about. Anyways.. I will say this. For the past week I've done a lot of hard thinking, battling, soul searching and I realized what I needed to let go of and what I needed to improve on. I made myself a renewed commitment and to God and I wanted it official to my husband; Producer Robbi Spencer. I felt in my heart and in my spirit I needed to do this as it is the start of new beginnings for me. It was one of those things I KNEW I had to do this because it's time for me to actually live, enjoy each new day and fulfill my calling.
Last night as you know was a brand new start for me. I let go of things I couldn't let go of for 10 years because of what happened and I know it has been a factor with me in the studio and the production process in soooo many ways and that is why I'm behind in my recording process. So...
As your artist,
First of all.. I want to say I'm sorry. I didn't realize until this past week as to why I've been holding up the production process of my CD. I have thought about this a lot and I know what I need to do and if you are so kind and willing to agree, I would be grateful. I know you have many artists you work with constantly. You say your job is a cross between rocket science and babysitting and I think with my attitudes and temper tantrums in the studio more of the second part holds more true then the first. Although both parts are equally true. Anyway, I can't promise I won't still throw my little fits but I CAN promise to get my CD done on time and fulfill my contract. All I ask of you is when I get that way, just continue to ignore me when I get that way and continue on. I am willing to work as hard as I have to with everything with every ounce of energy I have and what I don't have and everything in me. I guess what I'm trying to say is that, I am renewing my commitment to you, as my producer and Progressive Edge Records. I can't say I won't have my battles but I promise to either leave them outside the studio or get past it real quick and just do it. I learned and realized so much this past week, you have noooo idea. I learned that not letting those things go were a big part of what was holding me back and holding up production. Also, remember when I told you that I would be the best female singer you've had here? I still mean that, but now more then ever and you can hold me to that! Fair Enough? Now that I 'let go' I believe that I can do it and I can't be held back anymore and I won't let pain hold me back anymore. You have been somewhat patient as one can expect but... it's a new day, new time, new life so to speak.
Would YOU be willing to agree to be patient with me and ignore my little fits (I am a girl, it happens..lol) IF okay... lets be honest here, WHEN I have one of my little fits, Will you be as patient with me as you are with your other artists? I promise I will bust my butt to not only fulfill my contract on time because I dreamed of being signed my whole life and I'm NOT about to mess it up now so I will be better than ever and work as hard as I have to, with less hassles. I DO promise not to be such a pain in the.... in the studio.
And as your wife...
I love you with all my heart sweetheart and we both know exactly what 's been holding me back from releasing and doing what I was born to do. When God told me, do it! I didn't realize what I had to release and let go of until t his past week and you've been wonderful through it all. I love you with all my heart! I'm really excited because I feel so much lighter. Thank you for being so wonderful and such an amazing husband and friend. You are my heart, my life, my love. my everything!!
I love you Robbi.